In policing, if someone "bows up" you can at least lay hand on them [and I don't mean in the spiritual way] to bring them under control. Unfortunately, in schools you can not. I recall "back in the day" when dad would find out that we did wrong....boy did we get it.
So, I'm driving with those thoughts in mind thinking "I need a break!" When I was asked if I wanted to do this I said "I do, I do!" I did it with an expectation, joy and excitement. I shined my shoes, lined out my clothes a week at a time, brushed up on geometry, reviewed my "school Spanish" and so on.
I do! Until...reality came and paid us a visit. For almost three weeks I have been doing "double duty." I have worked all day and then spent the evenings at the hospital. Yes, that is reality.
What happened to that excitement, that joy of getting up every morning and facing those kids? While I have not lost it, I find myself a little more tired each morning. I find that the evening gets longer the more papers there are to grade and the mornings come quicker.
We go into marriage with a certain expectation, joy and excitemement. We want that "happily ever after." The reality of it is that life does come and pay us a visit. Things happen. The biggest threat is the unexpected.
We stand up there before our beloved and make all kinds of promises overlooking anything past today expecting that all will be sugary sweet for a lifetime. I am not telling you anything new when I say that it's not always the case.
Oh Yeah! We said "I do" but somewhere along the way it started becoming "I really don't feel like it" or "I really don't want to" and the reality is that the "I do" becomes "I don't!" We may hate what our marriage has become and may preface our sentences with "I don't."
I don't like my marriage
- I don't like the responsibiliby
- I don't like who I have become
- I don't like that my spouse has changed
Some would even consider saying "I don't want to do this anymore!" and just walk out.
The difference is we can quit our job if we don't like it or it's too stressful, or it doesn't meet our expectations....we can't just walk out on our marriage.
When "I do" becomes "I don't" in marriage, cling to God and His Word. Only He can change you and/or your circumstances. You said "I do" in marriage, say "I do" to God and trust that He has the power to change your "I don't" back into "I do!"
Another thing you do: You flood the Lord's altar with tears. You weep and wail because he no longer pays attention to your offerings or accepts them with pleasure from your hands. You ask :Why?" It is because the Lord is acting as the witness between you and the wife of your youth, because you have broken faith with her, though she is your partner, the wife of your marriage covenant. Has the Lord not made them one? In flesh and spirit they are his. And why? Because he was seeking godly offspring. So guard yourself in spirit, and do not break faith with the wife of your youth.
Malachi 2:13-15
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