Did you call?

Yesterday I was cleaning up getting ready to leave the house on an errand.  As I was getting dressed, I was listening to music.  A Christian radio station was playing throughout the house on our intercom system. 

Being in my dressing area, I had the music turned up because it is difficult to hear in that room.  As I was applying my make-up, I thought I heard something.  I thought I heard the faint sound of a duck.

You see, my son's ringtone is a duck and if I hear it throughout the day it means he needs something.  He either needs lunch money, running shoes, an extra t-shirt...something!  You know what I found?  I found that I didn't want to miss that call.

I dropped what I was doing and ran to where my phone was to pick it up.  Through the noise, the low volume on the phone and the distraction of getting dressed, I thought I heard his ring tone. 

As it turns out, it was not him.  It was not my phone at all but it did stop me in my tracks as this thought ran through my head.  Why?  Why did I think I heard his ringtone? 

My only response is that I want to be there when he calls.  I have tuned and conditioned my ears to listening for that specific ringtone throughout the day.  I have been surrounded with Seniors and them leaving for college that I have gravitated towards my son even more.

I am listening!  I am listening for the ringtone.  I want to the be the one that answers his call.  I want to be the one that hears him when he calls. 

I soon thought of Isaiah  6.  Who is willing to do it?  Who can I send?  I have to wonder "Am I that in tune with God that I will hear his voice when he calls?"  Do I want to be the one that goes when He calls?  Will I hear His voice or will I be so distracted by outside noise that I miss it? Are my ears and heart "conditioned" to hearing if he calls me?  I can only be conditioned if I have such a close relationship with him that I recognize His voice when he calls.

I was listening for my son's ringtone because I wanted to be there for him. I had alot of exposure this weekend to seniors who will be leaving for college.  I know my time is short and I want to be there when he needs me.  Like an eager puppy panting I am asking "you need me, you need me, what do ya need, what do ya need?"  I pray that I have that same commitment and dedication when God calls.

I want to ask "Father what can I do, what do you need me to do."  I don't want to miss it and have to ask "Did you call."

Then I heard the vioce of the lord syaing, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"  And I said, "Here am I,  Send me."  Isaiah 6:8