I Need You More

As I sat at the computer this morning, I knew what I was going to write about.  I already had it prepared.  You see, I believe these postings are God inspired and I take credit for nothing.  When God brings something to mind, I simply pull out my iphone and in the note section type in the topic and a few notes.

So, as "I" would have it, I was ready to write on my topic.  In order to enter into His presence and prepare, I turned on what has become one of my favorite songs "I Need You More"  because I was ready.  What I discovered was that God had another plan.

As the song began, I was immediately taken in.  I so longed to be in His presence.  I needed Him and I needed Him MORE!

More than the air I breath, more than song I sing, more than anything and as I sang with my eyes closed, God reminded me why I needed Him more.   Because He does not fail me. The song also says ...I never want to go back to my old life.   I don't even want to visit that old life much less be there.

 I needed Him more than those failed friendships I still grieve, more than the disappointments, more than the unanswered questions that sometimes linger.  I just need Him more. 

Not only do I need Him more, I need more of Him.  He was so quick to impress upon me that my time has not yet come and I need to remain faithful.  Just like God works in my life, the enemy rears his ugly head also.  At a time when I am preparing to teach a lesson on jealousy and envy, the enemy redirects my focus taunting me because "I have done nothing and gone nowhere."

That's why this song is so special.  This particular version is I need You More by Kim Walker found on YouTube and in it she goes off into her own worship in which she says:

I'm so hungry for more of your presence God
I don't want to stay where I've been
I don't want to camp out and just stay in one place
I want to run deeper into your presence God
because I'm so hungry for so much more of you.

That's where I want to be.  I want to be so deep in His presence that all I think, speak and live is Him.  To say that I don't struggle with things would be a lie so let's be real.  Real is I have questioned my purpose, my direction, my value and that is why I need to stay in His presence. 

So many live in a world of mere existance, a facade and they need so much more.  That "more" is being in His preesence.  It's living a life that is Christ centered where everything revolves around your relationship with Christ. 

Think of the times you have said something like "I need you Lord."  Perhaps it was in a crisis, a tragedy,  a heartbreak, a loss, a financial disappointment....maybe you cried out to God calling on Him to change something or ease your your burden. 

Now think of the times you have said "I Need You More." More of your presence, more of your love, more of your word, more of you and less of me. 

In talking to God, I have told him this I "need" alot of things in life.  I need my family, true friends, a purpose; I need to teach, to learn, to love, I need grace...but above all that, I Need You More. 

The law was added so that the trepass might increase.  But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. 
Romans 5:20-21