How deep is your thorn?

Life is getting better.  I can now type with my index finger and thumb on my right hand and that is a great accomplishment.  Of course what you don't know is that it takes numerous "do-overs."  Sometimes I have to type and re-type sentences.  Today I told my husband "Ok, I'm done-can we just get on with it."  The reality is that it has only been three days and there is still alot of pain and healing will take as long as it takes.  Some life lessons are learned with time.

I immediately thought of Paul and his request "...there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.  Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me..."  I am a very independent person.  My mother never learned to drive and now at 71, she still relys on others to drive her to appointments, grocery shopping, etc.  I pretty much get up and go so to get in my car and need someone to shift the gears is hard on me.  Can't hold a cup of coffee, can't sign my name and can't deal with it very well.

Paul said that he would "boast all the more about his weakness so that Christ's power may rest on me." I'm just wondering why I can't just settle down. I want to hurry and write that lesson,  I want to post quickly, I want to sign my name, brush my teeth with my right hand and waash my hair by my self.  I want to get things done.  Paul said he got a response to his pleas.  It went something like this "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

I don't consider my thorn a really deep thorn but when it comes down to it, it's still a thorn and it is still "holding me up."   Despite his thorn,  Paul did not stop serving.  He relied on his strength coming from Christ. 

I pray that I will settle down and not let a thorn of five stitches slow me down.  I pray that despite my "inabilities" I will continue to allow God to use me.  I pray that I will delight in my weakness and not focus on my weakness but on God's power.   In the end,  it doesn't matter how deep the thorn is.  What matters is how deep your conviction is and whether or not you are willing to trust Him.

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  That is why for Christ's sake I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.  2 Corinthians 12:9-10