Turn back the time

I had my follow-up appointment for my hand injury today.  The doctor said I had two options and he proceeded to describe each.  I could do nothing but sit there and cry.  The doctor asked "What is going on? I see tears..why tears?"  I responded "I just want to turn back time so that this would have never happened."

We were in San Diego this week.  The first thing we did when we arrived there was turn back the time.  I wanted to turn back the time on my injury.  I wanted to change what took place.  I wanted to have stayed in bed and not gotten up.  I was so sad that now I had to make a choice-one of which which would require a six week recovery.  I cried that I could not type, I cried that I could not drive, I cried that I had to make a choice and I cried that in two hours I had to give a presentation and did not feel ready...I just wanted to turn back the time.

As God always does, I went to my presentation and gave my excuses for my limitations in presentating my material to which one lady displayed her scar of stitches on her right wrist where she had fallen and broken a bone.  The other lady explained she has not had the use of her right hand/arm for years and has been totally dependent on her left arm.  I had to ask myself  "why the tears?"  Is God teaching me a lesson in my limited use?  Is he saying that I must totally depend on Him? 

Why did I want to turn back the time?  To turn back the time would have meant missing time with my mother that morning.  Turning back the time would have meant we would not have shared stories and laughter either.  I have often thought of some of the thimgs I have done at mom's due to her limited vision.  "I have changed light bulbs on unsteady chairs, whacked tall weeds with a machete, climbed cyclone fences to retrieve articles, opened can goods with a knife, and I have never injured myself."  Here I am cleaning an lantern and it costs me a torn tendon and five stitches. 

I wanted to turn back time...instead, I should wait on God's timing.  I know the time will come when there will be no pain and I will have full use of my hand.  Until then, I will use this time to seek Him!

Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the Lord until He comes.  Hosea 10:12