After almost 24 hours in an aircast and crutches I'm done! I do not like the crutches, I do not like the limitations and I do not like the confinement!
Furthermore...I want to run! I can tell you this has really taught me a lesson in obedience and patience, my two most difficult areas. We have stairs in our home so that complicates things even more. A trip downstairs drains me. This morning I had to feed the dogs and had to manuver two bowls of food, water and crutches. It was almost a disaster.
I can not do anything I want to do. I can drive but by the time I make it downstairs I am spent! If only that doctor would have said "Just bandage it and go on your way." That would have made life easier for me. Instead he said "air cast, crutches and no running." He took away what I enjoy most.
It parallels my obedience life in my Christian walk. God does not ask us to be obedient for His own good, He does it so that we can reap the benefits of growing in His love. Like me, there is always an excuse. "That's too hard, I dont want to do it, I'll get along doing it my way" and so on and so on.
This morning as I meditated on the similarities of obedience I thought of my selfishness in not wanting to do it. If this doctor knew anything about me he would know I like to run and I have a mission. I have things planned to the end of the year and he doesn't even care. He just said "do it." He didn't give me an option, he didn't give me a choice, just "do it." He is a true picture of "there's no other way."
God isn't that kind of God. He doesn't just say "do it." He gives us free will to follow Him. In the end, if we choose not to obey, we suffer the consequences. My hope is in Him. I pray I will be obedient with a willing spirit and not go kicking and screaming like I am with these crutches. In the end, I know that this doctor knows best and I do want to run again so....I will obey his orders.
In my walk with Christ, I will trust and obey knowing that He will take care of me. The song goes "Trust and Obey for there's no other way, to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey."
But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever. I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints. Psalms 52:8-9
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